Defeat is not the worst of all failures. Not to have tried is the true failure.

It's past midnight and although I am tired, I just feel like putting down some thoughts before I go to bed. Today is a drop-dead tiring day, work..appointments and business talks...reached home almost around 11pm and there is a part of me asking, is it worth it? So I decided to list down the reasons why I would venture into business although I have a secure, non-stressful job which pays alright. Here goes:

1. Minus my mountain of commitments (a better word for debts), I am left with little at the end of the month. Sure, every year I get good increments...but then, every year my needs changes too and I'll probably accumulate more debts. In short, I need more money.

2. Someone who joined the business told me he achieved so much now, however too late to contribute to his father as he has passed away. I still haven't contributed much or gave any big rewards to my parents as I am myself struggling to survive in this cruel world. I want to give them the world if I can.

3. I want designer handbags, a closet of fancy clothes, expensive holidays, sport cars, a big house...the list goes on...Yes, people tell me that I should be grateful for what I have and stop dwelling on what others have. But there is this inner voice telling me that as much as I am grateful, I KNOW I can have what others have...if I put my mind and heart into it. So why tell myself this is all my life could offer?

Right now, I can think of 3...cos my brains are already half asleep! Kesimpulannya, I am working my way towards financial freedom. I dont want my future kids to limit what they want, or vice versa...I dont want to limit what I want just because I have kids later...

Some people may not be supportive, but I am not gonna dwell on them wanting to see me fail. Even if I did (which in God's will, it wouldn't), defeat is not the worst of all failures. Not to have tried is the true failure.

Goodnite.....Abu (the cat) has been calling me to bed.....so ciao people for now...I'm gonna continue dreaming...until the dreams come true :)

Family Holiday 2010 - KK & Pulan Mantanani

Fuhhh penatnye rasa badan...holiday sepatutnya rasa lagi relax, tapi rasa lenguh badan...sakit satu badan naik bot yang dok enjut selama lebih sejam! hehe...so ceritanye begini, percutian ni actually dah lama me and my sister plan for our family... alhamdulillah, hubby yg sentiasa sibuk dengan businessnya pun dapat participate, so since all six of us are finally available for a few days duration, so teruslah book tanpa nak fikir banyak sangat....it's actually planned for my lovely parents nyer 30th Anniversary, which dah lepas in September, but the present kirenye came in December lah ni.

Just the 6 of us

Sambil tu, me and hubby treat this as 2010 nyer honeymoon lah...alhamdulillah duit pun masyuk je semenjak join business baru ni, so we pampered ourselves lah lebih sikit kali ni..janji happy! :)

Dynamic Duo on holiday mode

DAY 1: Check in hotel and relax - buat suka hati

We took the morning flight and when we got there, terus check into Meridien. Bagi those yg suka jalan2, duduk sini paling senang...dekat ngan shopping complexes, Filipino market, pasar (kalau nak beli udang bawak balik KL), and easy access to tempat2 makanan. But me, hubby and Mummy terus ke Warisan Square for foot massage. Ala, murah2 nyer je...RM50 for foot massage + foot scrub for an hour. Oklah tu. Then lepak2 until dinner time...masa yang ditunggu2...SEAFOOD!!!:)

These are huge kerang...lagi besar drp sudu tau!

Saje ambik gbr ni nak tunjuk kerang ni besar! hehe...

Chilli Crabs...sedapppp!

DAY 2: Mantanani Island Adventure

Perkataan "Adventure" tu ada sebabnye...hehe...siapa yang faint-hearted tu, tak payah lah pikir nak ke sini, especially time Monsoon ke, angin kuat ke...ombaknye sangat besar...

Pulau Mantanai..paling dekat ngan South China Sea

It takes 1.5 hours to reach Kota Belud and kena amik boat dekat ngan Tuaran (if I tak silap lah, bab Geography ni mmg I fail...hehe)...ada jetty kecik...then from there, it took about an hour naik boat...siapa yg suka rollercoaster, ha...it feels like an hour of rollercoaster!!!...fun jugak actually...tapi ada yg mabuk laut jugak i nampak...well, for me...it was worth it lahhhh....SANGAT LAWA!!!!

This awaits when you reach the island

I can just laze by white sandy beach all day!

Clear blue water...best for snorkeling n scuba!

All of us went snorkeling except Mummy and hubby. Mummy tak suka main air, phobia pun ye jugak. Hubby pulak nak try out scuba. I wont go into the details of his near-death experience trying out scuba for the first time...but yeah, kesimpulannye is, make sure the person who guide you is really experienced and follow the steps to train a first timer. He hasn't given up anyways and we shall find time to scuba again - banyak lagi islands nak explore lagipun kannnn.....

Hubby nak tunjuk corals yang disusun...layan jelah

Kalau terkena jellyfish ni, terasa mcm tangan kena potong!

Beach ball with the island people

Big catch! The fish, I mean...hehe

Masih romantika after 30 years! :)

DAY 3:  Recuperation

Everyone mostly in bed, recuperating from the boat ride from Mantanani Island back to the main jetty. The ombak was way too rough!!! Mummy wanted to vomit, seasick. The guys from Scuba Paradise was really cool, made all kind of jokes to distract us from looking out to the rough sea. I must admit, the journey to the island was alright, but the journey back was SCARY!!! I hugged hubby most the time, although with life jackets on, I cant help thinking if I tercampak and the life jacket terbukak, will anyone find me? What if no one rescue me til night, mesti scary terapung dalam gelap...and all kind of scary thoughts ran through my mind.

Tapi selepas semua dah tido and massage puas2, sempat gak makan nasi padang. Food is the cure to everything :)

Sedap betul nasi padang kat sini!

Percaya tak ni untuk 6 orang makan?

Oh, we managed to go to Filipino Market to get some souvenirs lah. Nothing much, just bought some borneo pearls for myself and some friends. And we had seafood dinner again. Most of the pelik2 shell type of seafood seem to be finished by the time we got there. Damn.

DAY 4: Packing seafood bawak balik

We beli udang besar, udang pelik and sotong giant. Packed it in ice, khas untuk diterbangkan ke KL. Yum yum...makan seafood jelah we all seminggu dua ni...hehe

Dia paling excited nak gi pasar!

Catch of the day!

Aaaahhhh...it was an awesome family holiday! Next trip, insya-Allah when the business grows, target 6 months from now...I nak bawak my whole family gi London! I nak shopping di sana! To my family, I hope you had a gr8 time as much as I did...love u loads! And wishing my parents a Happy 30th Anniversary once again....to many more wonderful years to come with God's will. And to hubby, looking forward to honeymoon again in April, Hong Kong here we come!!!! :)

Til the next holiday!!! Muahhhssss!!!!

Dare to dream BIG and the dreams will become a reality

Look throughout the world at those who have achieved the most in life. People like Bill Gates, Donald Trump, Warren Buffett. These are the people who have stretched their imaginations to unforeseen levels. They have dreamt at levels we have never imagined. Many people believe they have gotten lucky. The reality however, is that its that simple skill, of dreaming big, that has guided them to their success, fame, and fortunes.

Tapi cerita yang I nak sampaikan is about successful women who reached the top at a young age. Look at Kim Kardashian for example. People may think oh, she got the looks so easy for her. But following her blogs, I know for sure she is just another simple girl who works hard at what she is good at. Marketing herself and pursuing her business. Do you think a dumb woman could have done what she have done?

Takpe, lupakan my obsession over Kim Kardashian and get back to topic....hehe...I got the chance to know Hanis, a successful businesswoman who had climbed up to the top in less than a year...and I was immediately IMPRESSED! She is a loving mother of 2 children and oh, did I mention she is only 25? Oh and btw, she is earning min RM50k per month!!!!

Me and Hanis after brainstorming ideas..the biz rox, I am all hyped!!!

Let me go back in time, when I was 25, what was I doing?

- Working in a bank with a salary of RM2.5k, which more than half goes to my car and credit cards

- Savings? None! (Dont judge me, I'm just being truthful here)

- Psycho Shopaholic (Yes, I shop like I was a millionaire)

- Spending more money on entertainment 

I am glad I got the chance to know Hanis, I am more motivated now to expand the business and grow together with her and the team!!! I always believe that if someone successful want to guide you, take that opportunity! Don't let chances slip you by, just because you are scared of the "What if I fail?" question. 

You never know until you try, and I truly believe, deep in my heart, that if you dare to dream big, the dreams will become a reality. If you limit your dreams, that is by far the furthest limit you will go.

Hong Kong, here I come!!! This is soooooo exciting!!! Free tickets for me and hubby!!! All expenses paid, bestnyerrr!!! WEEEHOOOOOOO!!!!

PREMIUM BEAUTIFUL NEW YEAR PROMOTION!!!

Wow, time flies! It's almost 2011!!! I checked back my 2008, 2009 and 2010 resolution which I actually jot down in my diary, and there is one thing in common. All three years, Resolution No. 1 = LOSE WEIGHT! haha! Macam makin naik je every year...well 2011, masih item yang sama on top of my list, but this time I am more confident cos now I have PREMIUM BEAUTIFUL :)

Ada impian utk nampak as HOT as Kim Kardashian?

And have gr8 curves like this hot mama? Walaupun dah beranak, anda masih boleh kelihatan anggun ok!

Eat right (elakkan fastfood and junkfood), exercise regularly (2-3 times a week kalau boleh), drink 8 glasses of water (it's proven to make you lose weight faster tau!)...dan pakai Premium Beautiful...GUARANTEED you will lose weight and get back that hot curve by New Year!

Siapa tak mahu kurus? Siapa tak mahu sihat? Looking good brings out the confident in you! 

Now with New Year around the corner, get your Premium Beautiful corset today!!! Look at the prices, slashed down for a limited time only!!!

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RM4500 in 2 weeks...let's double it up in another 2 weeks!

OK, I must admit, I haven't really gone shopping in ages! With the mountain  of commitments I have, tiap-tiap bulan I try to refrain myself from buying myself anything. Savingslah kononnye. But this week is different, cos thanks to Premium Beautiful, I have additional RM4500 in just TWO WEEKS! 

After putting aside some money to treat my Dad to his Blackberry (which I have promised him for months!), I dragged Hubby for a little shopping. With the crazy sales everywhere, we ended up shopping like crazy! OK, OK...I went a little overboard with shopping... hubby just got himself a pair of Pedro shoes which was on sale. Thanks Sayang for being patient...and for not grumbling...and of cos, for carrying all the bags! Love u!

Honey, penatlah...

Oh well...I deserve it...I put in lot of effort...staying up replying emails, sacrificing sleep for the past 2 weeks...so I told myself, OKlah, first pay cheque, bagilah I chance sikit...next pay cheque bayarlah semua hutang piutang...and then aim for a debt free life. Aah, heaven! :)

So verdict:

- 4 Charles & Keith Bags (2 for me, one for Mom and one for sis-in law's bday)

- 1 Charles & Keith Wallet

- A new Luggage Bag

- 2 Pedro Shoes (one for me, one for Hubby)

- 2 pair of Vincci shoes (I ran out of working shoes)

- 3 pair of Reebok T-shirts

- Replenish my make up

Let's hope for business to grow the next couple of months. I really, really wanna go shopping again!!! :)

The beginning of a journey to PB World

OK I must admit, investing in Premium Beautiful (PB) is not in my list of investments. The opportunity came at the right time and I must thank Farah for forwarding me a blog that may change my life forever - insya Allah. I love getting to know successful people, and especially the ones who have reached the peak at a young age. Ada a few of my friends out there has made it BIG as well and I am proud of them. Nope, I'm not jealous...I want to be one of them, if not, much much better. 

I have been successful in terms of recognition-wise and dont get me wrong, getting a promotion makes me happy, but it's not enough. Why? Cos even if I work 100% harder, I still get the same salary or if lucky, a little increment at the end of the year. Bukan tu aje, kita kerja rajin2 tapi kalau boss rate kita teruk, ciput jugaklah increment kita...I tak pandailah nak bodek2 boss ni...I lagi suka kalau lagi kuat kita bekerja lagi banyak fulus masuk - barulah setimpal dengan usaha. I truly feel that this can be achieved only in a business.

After reading Hanis punye blog, I'm like "Is this real? Memang boleh achieve ke semua ni dalam masa singkat?" (I memang a bit skeptical about anything that involves selling barang through networking) Tetapi...lepas jumpa Hanis in person, I am more excited to join the business because her achievements does not come easy, it takes effort and hard work too. You can read more about Hanis aka my mentor:

http://h0n3yt0th3b33.blogspot.com/

I decided to join the business because I believe I can do it too. Premium Beautiful is a bestseller in the market and my aim is to let every woman know the benefits of this product to a woman - not only for slimming, but it's also for health. Every woman should have a set. Rugi kalau tak beli tauuu...nanti I bagitau sebab-sebab dan kenapa in more posts to come.

New Year is approaching and the right time to look GREAT, SLIM and DASHING! New Year promotion for Premium Beautiful is coming your way!!! Wait for it gurls!!!

Or if cannot wait oredi, to find out more, CALL ME 012-6164714 (Emma)

Say TAK NAK to Teh Tarik

My weakness? Teh tarik! Macamane nak say NO to this eh?

Imagine the amount of susu pekat in a cup of teh tarik. Pagi kalau no teh tarik, rasa mcm tak lengkaplah my breakfast...and kalau lepak ngan hubby kat mamak after work sometimes pun, I akan order teh tarik. I try to order something else, tapi bila tgk mamak tu tarik teh, fuiyoo...mcm sedapppp and terus dengan tanpa pikir panjang "Teh tarik satu!"...camne nak lose weight camni?

Next week I will try to go at least 3 days without my morning boost. Someone, anyone...challenge me please...I ni pantang dicabar...so maybe that will help. Just a MAYBE. Plus, I nak start Nestle Fitness Cereal 14-day program seriously...so breakfast and dinner makan cereal dan oats jelah. Boleh ke ni? Tungguuuuu.....

Big dilemma: Straight or curls?

I like straight hair, easy to maintain. I think I look better with curls though, but I am a lazybum who hates setting her hair in the morning, especially with my issues on punctuality, I think I'll be even late for work! Argh! Let's see the votes to far:

Hubby says curls

Mom says curls

Sister says curls

Bestfriends say curls

Colleagues say curls

I think I'll go for straight hair. It's my hair, guys...it's not like you are the one who is going to put on that curling cream after I blow dry my hair. It's not you who's going to answer to my boss who is already noticing I come in 10 minutes late almost every other day. I blame the carpool, the taxi, the LRT, the rain...fine, I am just simply not punctual! hehe. I will change...especially now that my boss stress clearly today that the new Big Boss is particular about punctuality. So now instead of putting the alarm clock an hour early, I must put it 2 hours earlier, and let it beep 10 times before I wake up.

Ok back to my serabai hair problem. Here's a confession: I hate going to hair saloons! Now that will probably answer your questions that you've been asking in your heart "Why is Emma's hair out of place and she does nothing about it?"...I can feel the questions each time you look at my hair, people. Yes, I noticed.

Ever since I was a kid, each time I go to hair saloons, my mom always get asked about my hair scalp. She'd buy all kind of shampoos but it's still dry. And the hair stylist will spend the entire time while cutting my hair, telling my Mom how this daughter of hers should take care of her hair and giving her tips. Every single time! And I was just a lil kid, I do get hurt u know. Sensitive kid I was. Thank God my Mom was on my side, and she would change hairstylists if I hate that "stupid hairstylist yang kutuk my hair tu".

But until now, I STILL get that.

Hairstylist says "Wah, your scalp very dry but hair oily"

I go "Uh-huh"

Hairstylist says "What shampoo you use?"

I tell him the brand.

Hairstylist says "That brand no good, no wonder hair like this". Then he recommends some shampoo and despite being kutuk and told I've got bad scalp and hair, I always end up buying the shampoo.

So not only I get my feelings hurt from awful comments, I lose money too.

Cut and Blow =  RM80 for long hair

Rebonding or Perm = RM250

Shampoo = RM120-RM150

Feelings get hurt = Priceless

I'll drag my body to the saloon this weekend. Whether curls or straight, I'll still get hurt again by the hairstylist.

Inner Beauty is No. 1, but looking beautiful inside and out is a BONUS!

Let's talk about beauty. People keep saying beauty is skin deep, beauty is what's in the inside, beauty comes from within...etc etc bla bla bla...i think the people who came up with that are just trying to make themselves feel better :p

Not being cruel here, just sayin'. I am one of those unlucky ones which seems to have a hard time losing weight...in short "naik berat badan senang, nak turun punyalah susah!"...when i was like 9 years old, I was an obese kid. My mom pampered me to bits..I can eat KFC 6 pieces in one go! But I started to lose weight when I turned into a teenager, arnd 16 years of age...but imagine 7 years having people tell me the consolation words "beauty is skin deep"...but honest truth, I dont think I had that many friends nor any guy looked at me. At 16 when I lose weight, and started looking pretty, guys were asking me out...people wanna be friends with me...I got more attention that I needed. So tell me, kalau betul it's all about the inside, kenapalah saya dilayan dgn teruk sekali dahulu? That's my personal experience.

But then again, no regrets on my side pun. There was a lot of things I learnt from there. The main thing is I learn a few things:

1. Physical appearance does matter (kena nampak presentable lah...rambut jangan serabai, muka jgn garang sgt, pakaian mestilah bersesuaian)

2. To survive in this cruel world, you must look good to attract attention (this helps in the working world...walaupun org kata boss tak tgk semua tu, but I was a boss before, and I mmg suka org yg bergaya...of cos kerja pun kena OK...hand in hand)

3. Men loves to see beautiful things (ni bukan maknanye kena muka mcm Angelina Jolie...but u have to look good...wear make up...make sure pergi monthly facial and your face will glow...I met hubby for the first time at the bowling alley...he was in the next lane and start mengorat...later dia bgtau, first thing he said he saw was physical, dari mata baru turun ke hati...i amik sebijik ayat dia kata kat i ok...no reka-reka...hehehe)

4. Beauty = Confidence (Simple, my confidence level is high when I get noticed, and by just 'Cantiknye make up u' or 'Mana u beli baju tu? Cantiknye!' is enough to boost my confidence the whole day!)

BUT...before u judge me and say Gosh, this girl is so full of herself..........I stand corrected....INNER BEAUTY MEMANG PENTING, tapi sekiranya hati busuk pun takde gunanya. Looking beautiful inside and out is a BONUS! Apa yang ada di dalam, adalah diri u sendiri...terpulang pada masing2 utk berubah sekiranya ada kekurangan....but beauty in the outside, we can work on it. Jaga penampilan diri dari muka hingga ke kaki....and complete it with Premium Beautiful. Insya-Allah you will look extremely beautiful :)

p.s. oh yea. sebab i upload gbr ni is cos time ni i lose 7kg from my previous weight lepas kawen, and i got many hits on facebook comment about the hair n weight loss. Physical apperance penting gals! :)

Manja terlebih pun tak elok :p

Dah lama I tak tengok gambar kahwin so since tgh boring2 ni, hubby and I sajelah belek2 gambar lama...tergelak besarlah we all...saiz badan kitorang dah naik double kot in 4 years! haha!

The first 2 years I still maintain this figure tapi ntah bila I stopped taking care of my body. Before kahwin, my mom masak and I will say no if i dah makan banyak sgt. Pandai pulak I skip rice for dinner...aerobics and gym was my daily routine. After married, nak rush balik utk masak, gym mmg tak sentuh and each time I cook, I eat.

I know, not an excuse! But this was what happened. I didnt realise I put on weight day by day. And before I know it, I am way overweight. Now another task of mine is to lose weight. Susahnye! But this week I have made it to the park 3 times! Weehoooo! So if I can keep this routine, maybe in like hmm....6 months I can get my figure back? With the help of Premium Beautiful, I'm sure it'll be less than that :)

Comment Hubby: "Sayang, dont worry about losing weight. I sayang you no matter what. You sentiasa comel"....one thing, comel is another word for ugly in my vocab. second thing, how to motivate myself to lose weight if i dont feel inferior. and lastly, he pampers me too much and kadang2 manja terlebih pun tak elok...in my case, manja terlebih end up with me being a fatty. haha...

It's never too late to be what you might have been

Yup, it sure aint. Sometimes I tanya diri sendiri, what have I accomplished? I am turning 30 next year and there must be something right? Mungkin orang kata I ni tak bersyukur, but the truth is I have accomplished a lot in my career, but not when it comes to self satisfaction. I never felt truly satisfied of my achievements as those were never my passion, career = money, tu aje.

Let me intro myself, since this is my new blog and first blog I go by exposing my true self. Yes, I am anonymous in other blogs but that's the whole fun of it! haha.

I am a 29-year old woman, married with no kids - yet. I got married young, at 25 all I want is to be united with the love of my life. Unfortunately, until now takde rezeki anak walaupun dah cuba macam2 cara. Mungkin ada sebab Allah tak berikan rezeki anak buat masa ni and mesti ada hikmah di sebalik semua ni. I redha je. Insya-Allah dengan usaha dan doa, it will happen. I was working in a bank for 4 years and that was the fastest 4 years of my life. Being promoted to Assistant Manager and Manager in 4 years terasa mcm unbelievable jugaklah time tu, but the sacrifice was the late hours at work and I had NO life. Kalau ada life pun, a very PATHETIC one. I left due to pressure and it wasnt a life I imagine myself to be in. Now I'm happier in my new workplace and promotion came less than 2 years here. Rezeki kerja Alhamdulillah, rezeki anak mungkin di masa akan datang.

I have gr8 parents who have brought me up well and I love them more than anything in this world. Yeah, I have a sarcastic sista and metro sexual brother, nevertheless I love them to bits. And a loving hubby who still makes me laugh and say the most romantic things although dah kawen almost 5 years. I am blessed in many ways.

Now I only have 1 thing left to do...chase the inner satisfactions. I want to make $$$ and help other people make $$$. Walaupun orang kata money is not everything, tapi I believe money makes you happier lah. I want to be able to go into a Prada shop and purchase a bag without having to think twice if this will effect my "entertainment with friends" budget. I want to be able to bring my family travel wherever they want without having telan air liur thinking of how much money is going to be spent. I want to be able to help the less fortunate lead a better life. I want many things, and it all comes down to money.

I'm starting now. The journey has begun and I'm sharing it with you. It's never too late to be what you might have been. I'm the living proof. Follow me :)